damage. hurt. pain. suffering. regret. who have I become?
what have I done? (depression, anxiety, addiction....

the vicious cycle and torment..)
Self-medicating ~~ 

Addiction is broken glass.
You know it's going to fucking hurt, 
but the addiction creates the 
illusion of NUMB. 
"You are someone else, I am still here...."
It's vicious and relentless.
Addiction is isolating.
Isolated. Alone. Your perceptions. 
Thoughts that won't stop.
Life inside a fishbowl....
Watching those you love change and grow
as the numbness engulfs you and 
the lies only grow stronger.


The OCD, anxiety... ADHD & the self-medicating at many points in MY own life have been MY relationship.... you will let others down, lose yourself down a dark hole...

My mind constantly wants to analyze, but at my very core this is what I feel:  MUSIC is an incredible medium, an art form that
has the power to infiltrate so many lives and hearts. 
The generation gaps and the genres. A song this real surpasses
any boundaries and will not leave you emotionally unmoved.
Trent Reznor and Johnny Cash tore something open in
their own way, and music is the universal healer. 
You can heal from this.  Listen. 
You are never alone.
The power of the mind is limitless.  Choose the pain of change.
Regret is not the fork in the road you want to take.
Change is incredibly difficult, but complacency only gets more difficult 
to unravel from.  

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Epitome...
11/22/2012 08:30:41 am

Music DOES heal. And for the most part we are all alone at some point, but music brings us closer.
The greater strength is sharing the struggle. And that you do.
Big Respect to you Heather. <3

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DIVA
12/21/2012 02:30:25 am

I've always said that music is the great connector. I see the beauty in the struggle and the storm... I listen to this expressed over and over not only in my own mind but in so much of the music I listen to. I'm humbled by your comments, and I thank you for your strength today.
<3

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