Fuck. I just realized that NONE of my posts on this page of the blog had much to do with overthinking! Ha! I've deleted, added and rearranged so many times, I simply cannot keep up with my own brain...SHE has a mind of HER own! Here we go.. “Remember, remember, this is now, and now, and now. Live it, feel it, cling to it. I want to become acutely aware of all I've taken for granted.” ~Sylvia Plath~
"God, but life is loneliness, despite all the opiates, despite the shrill tinsel gaiety of "parties" with no purpose, despite the false grinning faces we all wear. And when at last you find someone to whom you feel you can pour out your soul, you stop in shock at the words you utter - they are so rusty, so ugly, so meaningless and feeble from being kept in the small cramped dark inside you so long. Yes, there is joy, fulfillment and companionship - but the loneliness of the soul in its appalling self-consciousness is horrible and overpowering." ~Sylvia Plath
“So long as you write what you wish to write, that is all that matters; |
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Your self-inflicted restriction must be thrown off
if you are to succeed.
Fortunately for me, that isn't a problem.
It takes courage to say what you really mean. Conviction.
DIVA
if you are to succeed.
Fortunately for me, that isn't a problem.
It takes courage to say what you really mean. Conviction.
DIVA
damage. hurt. pain. suffering. regret. who have I become?
what have I done? (depression, anxiety, addiction....
the vicious cycle and torment..)
Self-medicating ~~
Addiction is broken glass.
You know it's going to fucking hurt,
but the addiction creates the
illusion of NUMB.
"You are someone else, I am still here...."
It's vicious and relentless.
Addiction is isolating.
Isolated. Alone. Your perceptions.
Thoughts that won't stop.
Life inside a fishbowl....
Watching those you love change and grow
as the numbness engulfs you and
the lies only grow stronger.
The OCD, anxiety... ADHD & the self-medicating at many points in MY own life have been MY relationship.... you will let others down, lose yourself down a dark hole...
My mind constantly wants to analyze, but at my very core this is what I feel: MUSIC is an incredible medium, an art form that
has the power to infiltrate so many lives and hearts.
The generation gaps and the genres. A song this real surpasses
any boundaries and will not leave you emotionally unmoved.
Trent Reznor and Johnny Cash tore something open in
their own way, and music is the universal healer.
You can heal from this. Listen.
You are never alone.
The power of the mind is limitless. Choose the pain of change.
Regret is not the fork in the road you want to take.
Change is incredibly difficult, but complacency only gets more difficult to unravel from.
what have I done? (depression, anxiety, addiction....
the vicious cycle and torment..)
Self-medicating ~~
Addiction is broken glass.
You know it's going to fucking hurt,
but the addiction creates the
illusion of NUMB.
"You are someone else, I am still here...."
It's vicious and relentless.
Addiction is isolating.
Isolated. Alone. Your perceptions.
Thoughts that won't stop.
Life inside a fishbowl....
Watching those you love change and grow
as the numbness engulfs you and
the lies only grow stronger.
The OCD, anxiety... ADHD & the self-medicating at many points in MY own life have been MY relationship.... you will let others down, lose yourself down a dark hole...
My mind constantly wants to analyze, but at my very core this is what I feel: MUSIC is an incredible medium, an art form that
has the power to infiltrate so many lives and hearts.
The generation gaps and the genres. A song this real surpasses
any boundaries and will not leave you emotionally unmoved.
Trent Reznor and Johnny Cash tore something open in
their own way, and music is the universal healer.
You can heal from this. Listen.
You are never alone.
The power of the mind is limitless. Choose the pain of change.
Regret is not the fork in the road you want to take.
Change is incredibly difficult, but complacency only gets more difficult to unravel from.
Epitome...
I cherish you. This is for you....your suffering has ceased. So many of us found meaning in all that you were and continue to be.
The Diva
I wouldn't change my life, abilities, challenges or gifts....They are my sadness and my joys. Without either, I wouldn't know that I was standing in the most amazing sunshine. Most people never discover who they really are, and for that, I am truly blessed. Be that sunflower always facing the sun, and never give up hope.
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